my friend told me

that she once read in a book that you should get five hugs a day.
2 is healthy
3 is okay
4 is good

but 5 is best.



who wants to hug me? :]

tonight i went to prayer meeting

in alameda.

that is literally all i have done today.


lately i've been really unmotivated in terms of school, housework, and even relationships with people actually. I feel no need to talk to people or meet new people or hang out with old friends... I dont care enough about class to go to class, so i dont prepare for class since i know i wont go.
And this is coming at the worst time since i have papers and midterms coming up within the next couple weeks.
i dont want to do anything, including laundry or cooking to feed myself.
sometimes i'm unmotivated to the point of not showering or changing out of my clothes from sleeping all day long and just going back to bed again at night.
and not being motivated is simply making me feel like a failure and making me really guilty.
but i'm still not motivated.


and don't tell me to just do it.
i already know that i have to just do it.




*sigh*
i just dont see the point in anything anymore.